Yep, it STILL Rocks

That "undisclosed location" in Utah still delivers the goods.  Yea,  it's starting to get crowded.  This time we saw at least 5 other cars in the main parking lot.  Yep.  Getting crowded.   Course we did not actually cross paths,  were on the same trail with,  or have to stop/yield to any other riders.  (OK,  OK,  I'm exaggerating,  as usual.  We DID have to share one 1900 foot vertical rowdy descent with 2 other riders on that one trail.  once.)   Yep,  getting crowded out there in Vernal.

It was by all means the "Spring Training Camp" for this camper.

Campin

70+ miles and 15 + hours in 3.5 days.  Yea,  it kicked me in the hiney.  Bailed out on a loop or 2 at the end of a couple of days,  but in the end survived,  and it seems to have re-awoken what little "bike racer" I ever had in my system.  I have a hint of being able to pedal in anger again for the first time in well over a year.  Feels pretty damn good.

Hit a few new trails this time,  rounding out the area  bit more.  Quite the trail variety out there to sample,  plenty to keep a strong group occupied for at least 4-5 days,  no problem.

Ladder Bridge on Flume Trail

My,  ain't it purdy up here - J Boy Trail - Red Fleet Area

J-Boy Trail.  No Left Turn

Everything from semi-alpine/aspen grove rides,  to technical desert ledges to twisty,  smooth NARROW single track.  It has a bit of it all.  even a nonsensical shuttle/hke-a-bike/seriously chunk "downhill" run or two.  THAT little ride up & down Red Mountain was a ripper.

Red Mountain .  Yep,  Carry Bike up that..... ("Trail" visible....)

UNggarrggOOFPant

Moab is Great,  more new trails.  Fruita ROCKS.  Gooseberry is Stellar.  But I've got a bit of a thing for Vernal now.  Maybe not EVERY year,  but it deserves a spot in the Utah "MTB Honor Roll".  It's the kind of place you just want to keep riding in.  Even after the sun goes down.

Night Riding From Camp - Jazz ChromeMolly Trail

Place still reminds me of EARLY Fruita,  back in the days when it was still REALLY narrow out there.  3+ days on 8 inch wide singletrack is a great way to get REALLY back on the bike.  This summer is going to be a LOT better for this old guy.  I can't wait.

Guest Photography by Sean Buckman.  Great work.

We interrupt yet another spring snowstorm to announce that my regular yammering will continue after I go ride Mountain Bikes in an undisclosed location in Utah.

Gots to get me some more of this:

Vernal MTB - Seat-Barcam from Dale Riley on Vimeo.

That is all.

Spring has Sprung, er... dumped?

You'd think it was mid-February,  given the cold & snow lately.  While springtime dumps are not really that uncommon,  the last few storms have been on such a neatly staggered schedule,  It's just kinda getting annoying.    I'm ready to REALLY start riding,  and the Colorado spring is doing it's best to keep me from doing it.

After finishing up my Cancer treatments a little over a week ago,  I was really hoping to get a chance to get a couple of weeks of riding in before heading off on our "Spring Training Camp" at a top secret Utah location.  Looking more like it will be mostly on that trip where I'll find out how much my lack of any decent riding ability was fitness driven,  versus cancer drug driven.  I anticipate having my head handed to me on a platter twice a day by my still-in-shape riding companions.  Maybe the gallons of beer will help vault me back into top form quickly.  Or maybe I'll just suffer like a dog,  and do my best to have fun riding Mountain bikes in the desert.

In the last week or so,  the U.S. Cyclocross scene got news of more bad luck.  The USGP series looks to have died after a 10 year run.  I for one am pretty bummed by this news.   I think that a solid,  obvious premiere national series was a boon for focusing the elite of U.S. cross.   Sadly,  I don't see an immediate replacement on the horizon.   USA cycling is putting races on a "National Cyclocross Calendar",  but that is not really the same as what the USGP series brought to the table.  With luck,  there will be some kind of high-end series to focus on soon.  Wondering how much the "stress" on both  the promoters and the U.S. cross sponsorship pool from hosting Worlds contribute to the USGP demise?  Think it was probably on its last legs anyway,  but a shame that there is not an immediate,  obvious series to leverage the buzz from having Worlds here.

It appears that for us Colorado folks,  the Ft. Collins race will survive in some form,  looking like the "other" UCI race here in Colorado (besides Boulder Cup...).  Hopefully we will still get a chance to see the big dog pros in action twice a year here.

Not a lot else from my snow-addled brain right now,  starting to have reoccurring visions of tight,  twisty desert single track.  Getting hard to focus.

Incompetence? Power Grab? Lunacy?

Well,  well,  well.  Our friends in the Springs (and France/Switzerland!!) have struck again.  After blackmailing at least 51% of the Colorado clubs into going for the "Borg Assimilation" deal last year,  they seem to have gotten bored,  looked around for some other unsuspecting aspect of cycling to "help" that had managed to survive without the astute leadership of the UCI and USA Cycling.    That poor,  never to be the same new target is mountain bike races and Pro MTB racers.

After seeing the success of the "Forbidden Race" rule as a stick to whack Colorado bike racers over the head with

UCI on Right,  USAC on left.
BAD bike racer.  BAD!  (Whack, Whack, Whack) 

The UCI & USAC have turned their UCI rule 1.2.109 sticks on Mountain Bike race prompters and UCI-licenced pro racers.   "Forbidden Races".....  god,  that sounds,  well,  Sexy.  Makes you want to go do one,  huh?  I know I do.  (and I WILL......)

Stolen from Drunk Cyclist

Basically,  using the same stick they hit the ACA with,  The UCI demi-gods,  with the help of the USA Cycling mafia have said that ANY UCI licenced rider who participates in a NON USAC or UCI sanctioned race will be fined and suspended.  With a LARGE portion of MTB races in the U.S. NOT being USAC permitted,  including most of the "big time" races (Whiskey off Road,  Breck Epic,  Teva Games,  etc,  etc...)  falling outside of the USAC permit universe,  it puts a pretty big dent in the ability of any pro riders to promote themselves,  their sponsors,   earn any prize money,  or really do most anything a pro racer needs to do.  It also removes a big draw for race promoters,  getting the big name riders in their races to boost their race's profiles.

Lots of Press around on this issue,  None of it supportive.  While this latest salvo by itself might well just look like more posturing and attempts to assimilate any successful cycling programs,  when you also look at recent UCI decisions on such earth-shattering issues as Socks and lawyer tabs,  you start to see something that looks,  well,  either bizarre or desperate.  Maybe both.  Control issues?  yea,  kinda looks like that.

More Genius from the Brilliant Drunk Cyclist crowd

I see this as one of 2 things.  Either they really do care about NOTHING but snatching up every possible revenue generating sliver of the small money world that is cycling (Desperation??),  or the people running the show are just plain incompetent.  How could the people charged with running a $10 Million Plus dollar National Governing Body NOT see that you would piss off just about EVERYONE by suddenly "enforcing" such an asinine rule in the U.S?   Really?  If Steve Johnson and his staff could not see this coming,  I have to question their ability and fundamental understanding of the organization,  it's perceived mission and it's members.  The UCI?  Sure,  I believe them having no clue. With their pure Euro-centric view,  what harm could they see?  But The USA Cycling folks?  Sorry,  if you could not see the ramifications of this,  you should NOT be running the show.

It is obvious that MANY race promoters in the MTB world are not seeing any benefit to USAC sanctioning.  You can see why,  more insurance choices,  Riders NOT needing to have a $60 annual USAC licence to race,  not having to pay USAC permit fees,  Not having to pay officials,  etc.   In Colorado I see a grand total of **SEVEN** USAC sanctioned MTB events for 2013.  Wow,  that matches what the Winter Park Series has for it's series alone.  Not to mention the MANY other races & series in Colorado.    MOST MTB promoters are choosing to NOT sanction with USAC.  The USA Cycling folks have tried to address this in an interview with Cycling News,  coming up with this gem:

"The only reasons not to sanction an event with USA Cycling are if the organizer is: 1) under-insuring the volunteers and/or participants, 2) avoiding the requirement to have USA Cycling licensed officials at the event and the athlete protection policies they enforce or 3) avoiding the USA Cycling RaceClean program."


Really?  Avoiding Doping Controls it one of the three best things you can come up with as to why SO many quality race promoters choose to NOT use your "product"?  Wow.  Back to that Desperation or Incompetence question again.  I know I've always felt "unprotected" racing Winter Park Series events.  Their over the top willingness to address results issues,  fix safety issues and run a fair and popular series MUST be hiding a darker motive,  maybe the all knowing USAC folks can tell me what the evil "non-sanctioned" promoters are REALLY up to.   Some of the national level team managers & race promoters are also calling BS on the USAC party line.   I have yet to see ONE comment supporting the "new" rule enforcement.  

A somewhat conciliatory tone started coming out of the Springs after one of the largest Pro MTB teams put out a press release basically telling the UCI & USAC to get bent.  Hat's off to Sho-Air for standing up to this nonsense.  I hope notice gets taken by the UCI and it's puppet master,  Pat McQuaid.  This guy is big on rules NOW that he "runs" the sport,  not so much when he raced.  Is Sho-Air's "FU" to Pat & the UCI's stupid rule on morally higher ground than little Patty sneaking off to race under an assumed name in South Africa while racing there was banned due to Apartheid?  Yea,  I'll give the win to Sho-Air on this one.

Yet more staggering insight from Drunk Cyclist

So,  after a deluge of negative press,  scathing comments from their own members on their own Facebook page,  there are now some hints of a "solution" coming from the powers that be (Initially it was 100%,   It's the UCI!  Out of our hands!!,  Not our fault!!).  I just can't WAIT to hear what kind of "solution" these guys come up with.  If nothing else,  you can count on it being entertaining.

When Mr. Steve Johnson,  leader of the Borg,  uh,  er,  USA Cycling made the trip up here to "sell" the old ACA clubs on what a GREAT deal rejoining USAC would be,  he made a statement he might want to remember.  When asked what the benefit to the average rider would be to rejoining USAC,  he basically said that he "could not define the value,  only the riders could determine the value of USAC membership".    Wonder if he sees that his "customers",  the riders and race promoters CAN tell what the value of the USAC is,  and are walking away.  Basically SCREAMING that the value is not there.  Maybe they will listen to that very obvious feedback,  and rather than the usual tactic of telling their own customers how wrong they are,  look at the product they are offering,  what it is missing that drives promoters and racers away,  and what they are bringing to the table.  Maybe even change tactics.  Likely?  Not very.

Pure Money Grab or Pure incompetence?  I kind of see a toss up.  What they come up with to "fix" the mess they have painted themselves into should reveal the true motives,  once one peers carefully into the guts of the "solution".    God this sport needs some better people running the federations.  Both at the UCI & at USA Cycling.  Needs it BAD.  <Rant mode OFF>


LATE BREAKING NEWS (4/11/13 some random time)
The UCI,  under pressure from our savior,   USA Cycling have taken the heroic position to.... Wait for it....  Put off a decision on enforcing the "Forbidden Race Rule".   

So never mind,  next year they will do it when nobody will notice.   I'll give credit to USAC for at least doing something,  and taking on the UCI,  which is WAY more than I expected.  But modeling your earth-shattering decisions on such weighty matters Bike Race Rules on the workings of the U.S. Congress may lean toward the "Incompetence" option above.  

Kick that can down that road (MTB course....) boys,  kick it.

Treating what Ales you

I've been off on some ranting side trips here lately,  so thought it was time for an update on the wonderful world of Oncology.  Yep,  still getting random very expensive chemicals dumped into my body on a weekly basis.  Was closing in on being done with my treatment regime,  until going off & getting the Flu this week.

Doh!

Turns out that if you nuke your immune system back to the stone age with Cyto-Toxic drugs,  things like Flu Vaccines are pretty much rendered superfluous.   And as a bonus,  that flu stuff seems to REALLY kick you when your immune system is down.  Finally feeling semi-human again after 4 or so days of Sweating/Chilling haze.  Fevers are ALMOST as much fun as recreational chemicals! (Not)   And,  you get to experiment with yet more of modern pharmacology's best new attempts.  What side effects does Tamiflu have?  We'll see soon enough.

Prior to the lovely,  and out of season visit with this new virus strain,  I was doing pretty damn well,  Getting out to ride in the good weather,  and getting slowly thru my 8 rounds of Mutant Mouse Antibody treatments every week.  For those of you who have never had any exposure to the joyful world of an Oncology Chemo Treatment room,  here is a quick look into a world you really never want to see.  Given my treatable disease,  short duration and lack of side effects,  I feel like an interloper in there,  considering what so many others have to go thru in that room,  but it has been an eye opener,  to say the least.

Once a week,  you block out most of your day,  and go visit the Treatment Room,  usually after paying  your Hematology "Entry Fee".   That Blood draw and CBC the Blood Docs just can't seem to function without.

Then,  back to "The Room".  Cheery enough,  but still not anywhere you really want to hang out.

For me,  unlike a lot of the folks who get the "pleasure" of visiting regularly and have a Port,  I get a regular IV each week.

After getting the IV in and a flush of saline,  You get a few bags of "pre-meds" as almost ANY of the drugs they give for Chemo & other treatments can have infusion reactions,  so they load you up with IV antihistamines to minimize the chance of an anaphylactic reaction to any of the infused drugs along with steroids for the anti inflammatory and immunosupression effects.  For myself,  I get a cocktail of Tylenol capsules (the Rituxin can give headaches..),  IV Dexamethasone for my steroid,  and IV Zantac and Benadryl for the antihistamines.

Given the many bags of Benadryl and Zantac,  it's no surprise that many,  if not most of the "treat-ees" have those lazy-boys in full recline and are sacked out.  Nothing Like IV Benadryl to make you a bit sleepy.   After a 45 minute or so infusion time for the pre-meds,  I get a BIG bag (Like a Liter...) of Mutant Mouse Stuff.   That gets a very specific infusion schedule,  starting at 100 mL/hour,  and ramping up each hour by 100 mL/hour to a 400 mL/hour rate.   Takes 4 or so hours at best to get that big bag in.    You can get up and move around,  as long as you take your IV pole with you.    My treatment center has a nice little snack area and I LOVE taking my pole for little walks to get snacks and heat up my lunch.  Outside of that,  reading,  net surfing and napping are the real attractions for the day.  Once you have sucked up all your anointed juice for the day,  a quick flush,  IV removal,  and out you go.

I do have to give some props to two great bunches of people.  First,  the patients I have met in that room have been 100% great,  positive & fun people.  For some reason,  cancer patients have some of the best attitudes I've ever been around in a medical treatment environment.  The only people who eclipse the patients are the Chemo nurses who run the room.  Sweet,  caring,  funny,  knowledgeable,  supportive.   I have more respect for these ladies and what they do than can be put in words.  They love what they do,  and are FANTASTIC at it.  You can call them anytime,  and they have the answer for you.  Stellar people,  doing incredible things.  

The good thing for my treatment is that it has minimal side effects,  and up until the flu laid me out,  I was getting some good riding in,  get some base in place so that when I quit poisoning myself each week,  I might be able to start trying to make up for a year of broken blood and get some fitness going for MTB season.  I was able to catch some of those REALLY nice days before that last round of snow mudded all the trails up.  Even got to see some of my Wild Turkey friends.

Was riding enough to start to think I was almost a cyclist again.  Sadly,  it turns out that riding by yourself can lead to some "mistaken impressions"  of where your fitness might really be.  Any notion of having ANYTHING going in the riding department were quickly squelched with one group ride.  Boy,  do I have a LONG road back to reasonable,  or even functional level of fitness.  Going to be a long and suffering filled road back.   I can't wait.

Digital EPO

It must be spring,  I swallowed my first bug of the year last week.

Got some of those great,  fake you out spring days last week,  and I was able to ride the tail end out of the nice days.  Besides gagging down your first insect,  you know spring approaches when you get that first short-sleeve ride in.  You know it's getting close when you see people cutting out of work to sit by the lakes and fish.  Ah,  spring,  springing.  Right up until it goes back to windy-ass March weather.

I seem to have succumbed to at least some of the Bike-Geek Social networking peer pressure.  I've actually found myself using and even enjoying Strava.  I know,  I,  know,  it's either the best thing that ever happened to riding,  the worst thing,  causes people to go nuts,  begets "stavassholes"  all  that.   Turns out you can use it without going off the deep end,  or really even think about it much.  Not sure I'll keep uploading to it,  but it is a reasonable,  cloud-based training log/tool.

Course,  the dark side of it is the online competition side,  the whole King Of the Mountain and Strava Segment thing.  Being for the most part basically slow and incapable of getting KOMs on Strava,  I only see that side of the app as entertaining or just plain silly.  That said,  I can boast of at least one KOM myself.  A bike path thru a neighborhood here in "not-Boulder",  one I had no idea existed.   One mid-week day,  with a raging tailwind and no one out on the path,  I snagged that coveted KOM.  Who would intentionally make a Strava Segment on a slightly downhill,  crowded neighborhood multi-use path?  There is the entertainment value for me,  or an example of what is "wrong" with Strava.

Course,  if you want to get a "Real" Strava KOM,  you either have to be fast,  put a GPS on your scooter,  or maybe just go here

Yep,  EPO invades even the fake,  virtual race world.  Digitally Juice it up.

Course,  you could always just really go out & dope,  and do an actual race.  Since USA Cycling is launching a new initiative to catch all the dopers,   maybe you could get on Oprah too.   Even BRAC seems to be throwing some money at this this year,  since It takes $6000 to get USADA out to your local races,  even under the new USAC Race Clean Local Association dope testing money matching program.

Course,  no local guys or any of the old dudes would dope.....  oh,  wait,  seems like that already happened.   Course,  no one could go out & GET EPO to use,  would they?  Gotta be pretty hard to get,  right?   Well,  go put "EPO for Sale" into the Google & see what happens.

Wow.  Wow is about all I can say.  All the Chinese EPO you can subcutaneously inject available from a slew of sites.  Would you REALLY want to inject Chinese Knock-off "Erythropoietin" into your body?  For some local bike race glory?  Well,  maybe some would.

These sites are kind of insane,  to put it mildly.  Doping for sport instructions,  Dosing,  everything you could ask for obtaining & using the stuff.

SPORT usage

A common practice that may be used by performance sportsmen (runners, cyclists, swimmers etc.) in an attempt to increase performance is Erythropoietin. This substance is produced naturally in the body by the kidneys and is used to regulate red blood cell production. Patients suffering from anemia or chronic renal failure are legally allowed to use this form medically, however some athletes have decided to take advantage of this substance as well.

Due to medical advances, we can now inject EPO rather than blood doping, which was the common method in the past. EPO works by increasing the bloods ability to carry oxygen, thus serving as an ergogenic aid. Some studies have shown that athletes have had an 9% increase in VO2 max, 7% increase in power output, and a 5% decrease in max heart rate ((Juhn, M., 2003).

While the benefits of using erythropoeitin are unquestionable, there are serious side affects that an athlete needs to consider. After injection, the blood has a higher concentration of red blood cells and a thicker viscosity. This may lead to thromboembolic events that could be fatal. I.e. if you dope more than necessary, thrombs may stop the bloodstream during the exercises and sportsmen dies. There are serious suspicios agains EPO for the deaths of some top cyclists during 80s and 90s.

Seizures and hypertension are also demonstrated in those athletes who are blood doping. Most athletic federations have banned this practice and a haemoglobin limit of 18.5 g/dL has been implemented.

The injection of EPO in the body is a practice that would be very beneficial to any athletes involved in endurance activities. It would allow them to carry more oxygen per unit of blood than before thus improving their performance. This is not a sound technique however as there are strict regulations around it and there are many adverse health consequences that have been reported.

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Subcutaneous 3 times/wk dosing: 150 units/kg 3 times/wk. Reduce the dose by 25% when Hgb reaches a level needed to avoid transfusion or increases more than 1 g/dL in any 2-wk period. Withhold the dose when Hgb exceeds a level needed to avoid transfusion and restart at 25% below the previous dose when the Hgb approaches a level where transfusions may be required. Increase the dosage to 300 units/kg 3 times/wk if the response is not satisfactory after 4 wk to achieve and maintain the lowest Hgb levels sufficient to avoid the need for RBC transfusion and not to exceed the upper safety limit of 12 g/dL. Discontinue if after 8 wk there is no response as measured by Hgb levels or if transfusions are still required. Weekly dosing: 40,000 units/wk. Reduce the dose by 25% when the Hgb reaches a level needed to avoid transfusion or increases more than 1 g/dL in any 2-wk period. Withhold the dose if the Hgb exceeds a level needed to avoid transfusion and restart at 25% below the previous dose when the Hgb approaches a level where transfusion may be required. Increase the dosage to 60,000 units/wk if the response is not satisfactory (no increase in Hgb by at least 1 g/dL after 4 wk of therapy, in the absence of an RBC transfusion) to achieve and maintain the lowest Hgb levels sufficient to avoid the need for RBC transfusion and not to exceed the upper safety limit of 12 g/dL. Discontinue if after 8 wk there is no response as measured by Hgb levels or if transfusions are still required.

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SO there you go.  Everything you need to know to inject random Chinese liquids under your skin.  What could POSSIBLY go wrong.   Have at it,  and look out for the dope cops at the local races.  Let me know how it goes.  Me?  I think I'll just keep getting rejected by my Oncoloigist when I ask for EPO come cross season.   Again,  Wow,  just Wow.

OH, goodie!

A bonus round of doctor visits seem to be in the works.  While I have been doing just fine on my latest treatment of Mutated Mouse Antibodies,  there DID seem to be a bit of a "side Effect" creep up on me. Mostly,  the drug is as advertised,  very low in side effects.  A bit tired for a couple of days,  and a strange effect of filling up my throat with goo like I have a low grade head cold.  That was about the only obvious effects I had seen,  until a few strange "heart rate" events appeared during several rides.

I was Just Riding Along,  nice conversational pace,  when several times I had a sudden strange feeling, almost light-headed.  Very brief,  but then noticed some rather "unusual" numbers on my heart rate monitor.  I have not seen Heart Rates over about 170 as a max in a LOT of years,  but was suddenly seeing 190+ values in these brief moments.  Yikes.

Ended up seeing several of these over a few rides.  Kinda unnerving,  and APPEARS to have started just after starting the Rituxin infusions.  Not every ride,  and never off the bike.   Hmmm.

Mentioning such "events" to a Doctor triggers exactly the kind of reaction you may expect.  Immediate forwarding of your broken hide to another specialist.  Next week I'll get to spend most of my Thursday getting Mouse Juice as usual,  THEN get to go talk to a Cardiologist later that day.  Yee Haw.   These little episodes were pretty strange,  and seems reasonable to check things out,  as I have never had such "events" in the past.  I predict a stress EKG and getting to carry one of their little monitors around for a few days in my near future.  Will be really cool if it turns out it is just a version of the 1% of reported reactions to Rituxin that involve Tachycardia.      

The other side of the "Cancer Sucks" equation that does not get the story told as it should,  is what happens not to the Cancer Victim,  but those who care for them.  This disease hurts a lot more than just the victim.   I was forwarded the story below from just such caretaker.  I think that the stories from the loved ones are just as important,  and so I am happy to help vent for them.  Thanks for sharing,  Cameron,  and I am so happy your story has a good ending.

Learning to Care: Lessons You Don't Expect from Cancer

I really felt that my life was perfect in the fall of 2005. My wife Heather and I had just celebrated the birth of our daughter Lily. She was our first and only child, and we couldn’t have been more excited to be new parents. However, that all changed on November 21st, 2005. On this day, I went to the doctor with my wife. Sitting in the doctor's office, we learned that Heather had malignant  pleural mesothelioma. It was a very rare and extremely deadly form of cancer.  We were shocked and terrified, and neither of us knew what to do in that moment.

I started my life as a caregiver for someone with cancer that day. It was a hard journey and something that took a lot of patience and work. You have to learn so many things. The first of which is how to make tough decisions, not just with taking care of someone while sick in bed, but someone who really needed you to be there as they went through cancer treatment. I remember being in that doctor's office and knowing that our lives were changing. We had to make a choice about where to go for treatment. There were a few hospitals nearby that didn't have the right program. That was the first choice that I had to make as a caregiver. My wife was going to get the best treatment. The doctor suggested we see a specialist. His name was Dr. David Sugarbaker from Boston. I knew that if Heather had any chance at all of beating this terrible disease, she would need the best care available.  I turned to the doctor and told him, “Get us to Boston!”

For months after, I felt my emotions rising and falling on a daily basis. On the days when I had to work, I felt conflicted, staring at the clock wishing that I was at home with my wife and baby. There were so many things to do, and I had to be the one to do them all, or so I thought. It wasn't until much later that I realized I was taking on too much.  Our community of loving friends and family were eager to help, and I needed to learn the strength to accept this help.  Perhaps one of the biggest lessons I learned throughout this experience was that in a battle with cancer, there is simply no room for pride.  Other’s will be there.  Don’t be afraid to ask them for help.

As a caregiver, you will have bad days.  This is inevitable and even necessary at times.  The important thing is to never give up hope, and always keep fighting for a better tomorrow. 

Over the following months, Heather underwent extensive mesothelioma treatment in the attempt to beat this terrible cancer.  Against all odds, she was able to accomplish the near-impossible, and beat mesothelioma.  Today, over seven years since her diagnosis, she is cancer-free, happy and healthy.  We hope that by sharing our story of success against this ugly cancer, we can help others currently battling today.  Always hold on to hope, and never stop fighting for the ones you love.